My Two Cents Truthful Comment (2 of 2): Baby-Led-Weaning (BLW)

My intended comment turned into a post again. Coincidence? Perhaps not!

This is a response to Jenmum’s post BLW Wobble. There she says she’s practicing BLW but it’s been tricky both time- and food-wise, and it’s all feeling somewhat inconvenient. She asked other BLW parents for some insight and wonders  “…is it common to feel a bit of a lull and a bit overwhelmed?”

The short answer is yes, I’m sure that it is a common feeling, I’ve felt it and it only makes sense to. Humans are social beings who are generally thought to thrive in social and supportive environments. There isn’t much support for BLW and it is not commonly found among your close family members or even circle of friends. They may not necessarily be nay-saying it, but they aren’t the like-minded, story sharing parents that would be truly welcomed.

That said, for those of you who don’t know what baby-led-weaning really is, or if you have interests, questions, or concerns about it, you can read a great article here by Gill Rapley (Deputy Programme Director of Unicef Baby Friendly Initiative) that discusses the basic guidelines for BLW and addresses the FAQ on the topic. A useful resource is

My long answer to the not uncommon (or so I believe) dilemma is:

It can get quite messy, (I love these child aprons , perfect size to cover whole baby) and it might force you to reconsider your diet. But that’s a benefit!

If you yourself eat what you think is good for baby (and not just opt for the empty carbs as is temptingly quick and simple to do) you’ll probably feel better all around, have more energy and be connected to babe on another level: an ‘eating inuitively’ level. This is where you just know what you need to ingest based on what you’ve already had. Though baby’s needs are a little different from yours, they will be met in a more natural, whole life living way, based on a sound theory and less in a guess work kind of way.

So eating mindfully, and together, you connect to your own and baby’s body, and both of you will have a more complete diet (nutritionally and spiritually).

If it feels like too much to do all the meals together with baby doing BLW, do what you can enjoyably. I think it’s really important that we don’t give off the negative feelings to our baby that are so often associated with eating now-a-days. It’s also important that they aren’t felt rushed or pushed to eat certain foods, and especially not how much to eat.

Baby’s know what they want better than we do (compared to what we know of ourselves and to what we know of them in general). If they only eat certain amounts of specific foods and at particular times of day, so be it. It’s a wiser option to let them choose their diet than to create one that they may not enjoy.

I know you were mostly joking when you said your son would “eat only plums I’m sure if he had the chance”, but you know what? My daughter, Illuminating Sage, also adores fruit, well she gobbles up almost everything she has access to, but fruits are a favourite. Oh well! Fruits are easily digested, they are naturally sweet, which baby’s love, and they provide a lot of energy, which is especially beneficial to those littlest humans in our lives because they are always on the go.

I say if he wants to eat fruit, let him! It’s okay to go through favourite food phases, better that than prepared or rather pureed foods or the like, even if they are prepared by you, because don’t forget one of the awesome reasons we BLW, so baby can appreciate and learn the whole experience that is eating.

By using his 5 senses to take in whole foods, which is sensually pleasureful and a huge part of the eating experience, he can have that fulfilling sense and be sensibly full. Having options in front of him (shape, colour, texture, and scent wise)  he’s going to learn how he wants to eat, and thus enjoy nourishing himself all the more so that he is actually doing that, nourishing, not just shoveling stuff into his mouth. By choosing whether or not a food is something he wants right now, deciding how to chew it up, enjoying (or not) the different textures and tastes (which are often non-existent or bland in purees) and knowing how much he wants to eat, per bite and per meal, he is truly experiencing the eating process.

Truthfully it’s a lot easier when baby is allowed to be part of every meal, picking and eating (or playing with) what they choose to. (Some people choose certain meals to include baby in and part time BLW for any number of reasons.)

It is tempting to disinclude baby from our meals as a BLWer for many reasons. Some being convenience to eat what you want and not having to clean up messes (though you get messy with purees, it’s just a different extent and style). It is actually more expensive and time consuming, as well as emotionally consuming, to feed a baby prepared purees (feeding them, getting them to eat some of everything, or some of something when they may not want it, all while they are probably not tasting very much). But if what we want is for them to become natural, healthy & intuitive eaters then the best approach to take is the same as it is in all aspects of life learning, to learn by example, by watching and doing.

This is also why it’s important that we try to influence them as little as possible. Baby’s are soaking up everything around them 24/7, and a lot of it seems passive to us, though really it’s the way they learn behaviours. They always get something out of our actions. But especially when we’re trying to force something on them (like what to eat for example) do they do the most ‘interpretive learning’. Meaning they get something out of it that we may not intend for them to. Let’s say he is either full or hasn’t had enough and we start cleaning up or take it away from him (maybe we’re in a hurry), he might very well internalize something like “I want/don’t want more food, mama is making me do the opposite, since mama is my all knowing guide, god even, I must be wrong & unworthy to determine what is good for me and my body.” These actions are telling baby something that we might not mean, but will inevitably convey if we don’t really consider what we are asking of the little being. Something like this can lead to poor nutrition choices in older children continuing into adulthood. If we can’t trust ourselves to know what our body needs, then we will see the detrimental effect our whole lives, in many aspects, not just food wise.

We personally try hard not to influence Illuminating Sage while we eat, and in every aspect of her life, but I’ll list what we do and don’t do as general guidelines when we eat (because that’s what I’m writing about now):


Cook with baby, inolve her somehow in the preparation, have her nearby playing with kitchen stuff if she’s interested (and she usually is) when not in a carrier.

While eating, have her on our laps so she can experience the motions (the 3 of us often eat together so she can also watch what the other does). This also enables her to eat off of our plates so she is learning about sharing (and she does share her food, she has been offering us bites alternately with herself since she was 8 months or so). It also shows her that she is getting the same food as us and she feels included (I know because if one of us has food she will express interest, and because we allow her the option of trying it, she decides whether or not she’d like some, and this depends on what she’s up to at the moment). We waste less! Also, she is content being held, and not in the least because she knows that she can go down and play on her own at anytime (there is not as much immediate freedom in a high chair).

Have extra utensils on hand for her to experiment or play with.

Be prepared to breastfeed at anytime before, during, or after a meal. This may mean a quick clean up too if it’s been a messy meal, or if she wants it now I just take off my clothes (or embrace the messy breastfeeding babe if my company doesn’t permit nudity : ))

Lower your cleanliness standards at least until you know that baby is done with her meal, unless you can do it slowly and kindly all the while staying present to baby’s eating and other needs (I’v yet to master this without feeling like I’m influencing her to hurry or finish etc.)

Allow her to eat as much or as little of any of the foods present as she desires.

Seek friendly support or advice if it feels right or you want the connection.


Try to force or even express extra interest, before she does, in certain foods. When she does like certain foods more, or laughs or smiles at the taste of something, be present to her feelings and enjoy that with her. But this doesn’t mean try and present this food to her in the same meal again and again so she’ll eat ‘more’ or ‘enough’, nor does it mean you should expect the same reaction every time she tries it, or stop offering her other foods in that nutritional category because you’ve found one she likes. The same goes for foods she seems to dislike. (Though I wouldn’t pretend to dislike something just because she does, like by saying “yuckgh!”)

Rush or hurry.

Feed her as a general rule. Unless it’s a game that she’s initiated or something playful like that, or if you’re sharing a handheld fruit and she wants a bite etc…use your judgment.

Worry if she seems to be ‘regressing’, for lack of a better term. If she goes back to breastfeeding more or exclusively for a while and slows or stops eating her solids, know that it is temporary, just like breastfeeding itself is, and she won’t rely on this forever.

Force her or show disappointment at her lack of utensil dexterity, or lack of interest in using them at all. Same goes for the use of her hands for that matter (for the first few weeks Illuminating Sage only slurped or chewed off the plate or out of the bowl). In fact try not to show much enthusiasm for these things either (punished by rewards), just go with the emotional flow, she’ll be genuine and you can share in her feelings.

Offer foods you are uncomfortable with her trying. Reasons may vary, ours go from size of the food chunks, to whether or not there is sugar in it, to the organicness of it, many of the same rules we follow for ourselves. We luckily (and strategically, based on our diet and lifestyles) have no allergies to worry about so far.

Let it stop you if you’re out of your home. Just be prepared with whatever tools you think you might need, and let the restaurant, family member, or friend know what your up to if you feel more comfortable doing so.

Let others stop you from doing what you think is best!


My Two Cents Truthful Comment (1 of 2): Not So Sleeping Baby

I responded to a fellow commenter here at namastemommy re getting a co-sleeping baby to take a pacifier at night because she wakes very frequently for a quick snack before settling back down to sleep. She asked for gentle suggestions, this is mainly what I said, though I’ve emphasized some points and worded it a little gentler than I did the other night as I was quite sleepy and my response may have come off a little differently than I intended.

“Maybe your dd is sensing your worry and is trying to reach out to you. It’s a funny thing, but I EC (elimination communication) my dd 11 months now, and she’ll stir and fuss sometimes if I have to pee or if I am having a hard time sleeping.

What’s most likely is that it’s just a phase/teething thing/milestone related like when my dd was learning to do big things-crawling-standing etc…she’d sleep either more or less, feed more or less and especially so at night, or change daily routines and rituals.

You can wait it out, I know it’s tough, but respecting her changing glory is something we attached parents do to create that beautiful being. By being present to her needs and supporting what she’s doing, listening for maybe a reason why she’s doing things, we can relate and relax and truly enjoy it even if it keeps us awake (but if you follow this guidance you’ll hopefully be able to sleep more soundly, and her too).

I would gently recommend not using a pacifier, or a miracle blanket (?) (mentioned on the other comments). It’s not what she needs. What baby’s need, and what she might benefit from is human contact. For her to know that she is in a safe and loving environment with mama will be your best bet. If you aren’t too chilly, sleeping nude helps too when we’re going through these times. Or, like with my dd for her first 4-5 months (and still now at times), she literally slept nestled in the elbow/crook of my arm and it helps for a quick snack to sleep because she’s literally right there, easy to find, and she won’t stir for you if she’s already with you. If you do this for a while she’ll hopefully learn that you are always there and then on her own time gradually sleep next to you peacefully and soundly like my dd has been lately.

If none of this appeases, just know that we as mothers are made to wake at night, it won’t last forever. Most importantly, if you listen to your intuition you’ll more than likely figure it out on your own what’s going on and how to approach it. Because it sounds like you don’t feel that this continuous waking is right (as in instinctively, not the opposite of wrong) for you guys right now, and you of all people would know if something is up, I would recommend trying any of these: just spend some time the two of you: watching her, looking at her cues for basic needs, really seeing how she just IS, even just spend 24 hours naked to reconnect. But truthfully, she’s your daughter, your beautiful bond is what’s holding you together, not what everyone else thinks.”

I would add to try just cuddling or gently rubbing her back to sleep, or some other simple option like this. I have heard many success stories with this and it could be because maybe baby needs to know someone is there, but isn’t hungry or doesn’t want the breast, just wants some other form of comfort, and not un-reasonably so. The same goes for this as it does for any other option along these lines, that it may be a temporary solution to something that either is temporary, and thus the waiting game is played and mama wakes to do one of those things anyway, or it’s something deeper rooted and it would be best for both if they really look at what’s going and what might change for the joy and peace of both mama and babe.

Thinking about it, if this happened to us, I would look at what’s going on during the day first. Looking at the simple but sometimes not so obvious things (we get caught up thinking that everything is about what we did or didn’t do as parents so we sometimes pass these by)like: have there been any changes lately? visitors, pets, trips, moving or getting ready to move? Have we made any noticeable changes in our lifestyle? They may not seem big to you, but baby’s are very sensitive. Have you stopped, slowed or increased TV, music, car rides, hiking/walking or other activities, indoor/outdoor time?

Then I would look at things that would have a direct and obvious affect on baby like changes in: child care, toys & activities (inactivity or climbing and crawling urges not allowed by someone?) diet related (maybe she’s getting too much/little of something especially right before bed)
It could be anything really, that’s why communicating with your baby is so important, so we can understand what’s going on with them. This can be daunting and tiring and joyful and exciting all at once, and we won’t understand everything that is our baby, but we can try our best.

I would then take a hard, long, and honest look at my relationship with baby. Are we getting enough time together? Is that what she’s after? Is she feeling and participating in enough real life every day stuff? or in some baby’s cases the question might be is she sitting in some kind of a chair, pen or in front of the tv, or not really interacting with people who aren’t simply playing with toys? Is she really gettjng the breast whenever she wants it? or might we be weaning her intentionally or unintentionally? Perhaps she is not ready and is expressing that she needs mama and/or the breast more and knows that at night is the only time she can truly have this? This could also be a phase.

Is she welcome and encouraged to take out her stress in a healthy and productive way? Or is she protected against or prevented from expressing herself and releasing emotions by crying and the like when she needs to? (find some great info, resources and articles like this one here at on Aware Parenting and Non-Violent Communication especially)

Oh the possiblities! It’s almost as though babies are human…oh wait!

More to come on co-sleeping and the joys and challenges that accompany it. Also: the use-or rather my personal choice to not use- a pacifier, ECing at night, motherly intuition, baby milestones, extended breastfeeding on demand and baby-led weaning, and more!

Pure Parenting: For People, For Peace

I recently submitted this article for the summer newsletter of Inner Journey Canada. Inner Journey is a personal growth and self awareness group that we’ve been a part of since doing the Inner Journey Seminar in April of 2008.

Here it is:

I’ve been wondering, and pondering, and knocking my brain trying to figure out a way to begin this article. This is my fifth attempt at actually writing something down. I have written pages of truly touching stuff, but not what I want to express here. So I’ll write from my heart instead, and just start by quoting myself. I know! How queer a way to begin an article, but this is an IJ newsletter, and I’d say anything goes, expectations be gone! Whooo! Now that you’ve let go of your expectations, a quick and simple task right? I’ll share my story.

Regarding Inner Journey, “…we met many inspiring people, and are now inspired by most.” It’s about seeing something inspiring, something good and beautiful and true in everything and, as equally important or maybe even more so, seeing goodness and being inspired by the beauty and truth present in everyone.

My husband jubilant sage and I just had our two year wedding anniversary. On the day of our wedding everything was just right, to us at least, because nothing about that day could have felt wrong, in the strictest sense of the word. People around us were anxious, while we remained calm and aware. I recall at least three people saying they were nervous for us. We seemed to be the glue holding everything in place. That morning I left enough time to sleep in a little, and luxuriate a little with jubilant sage before getting beautified at the local organic salon. I made enough time to arrive at my parents’ place (where the girls were getting ready) to meditate. During this time I instinctively released my last minute energy and emotions that I had built up through a mix set of Tai Chi and Yoga. Now, had we not just finished the Inner Journey seminar a mere four months prior to the wedding, things would likely have gone differently. Of course we would have gone through with the wedding, but I think we would have shared the anxiety that others felt, and elopement might have become a real option. Neither of our family’s would have appreciated that, and we would have missed out on a that beautiful gathering that brought us all together.

To give you some perspective, I will be celebrating my 23rd birthday this October. Jubilant sage and I attended the same high school (which we graduated from 5 years ago now). We grew up in the same small country township our whole lives. We got together on March break of our last year in high school and have rarely separated since. Before IJ we had spent, maybe, two nights apart in the previous two years. We spent all of our time together, and mostly still do, but now we do it differently. We feel closer to our true selves than we have since childhood, before all the social, cultural and more specifically parental conditioning started to settle in. I am very grateful to have been introduced to IJ as early in life as I was, especially so because it was before our wedding, and I feel deep gratitude to both of my schoolmates for gently educating me (setting an example) on what the IJ could do for me.

Last September we welcomed our daughter illuminating sage to this earth. For many months prior to that day I rediscovered what I call that researchedly passionate part of myself. I spent the majority of my pregnant months researching pregnancy, birth, and parenting across cultures, reading books, surfing the internet, whatever I could find. I’m so grateful that I did.

Who knows where that came from and why. Perhaps I’m making up for all of those years of “essential” schooling where I was forced to learn things that I didn’t get to choose, through a method that didn’t suit my individual needs. Or perhaps it comes from my true personality, one that loves knowlege and thoughtfulness and philosophizing, that was brought out during the most natural process that a woman can experience. Or maybe it is just how I have responded to my conditioning, and I take comfort and gain love and acceptance by being learned. Of course it’s a mix of these things along with even more reasons.

Before becoming parents, through our work in the IJ community we came to see that jubilant sage has an overpowering pleaser, and me a maniacal moralist with a huge dash of critic. The most fascinating thing about these insights, and the insights we shared with other participants, was how many of them stemmed from our experiences in early childhood. In almost all cases our ‘hangups’ and judges were related to that child in us, or at least it’s memories.

With all the reading and learning I’ve been doing (alongside all of the parenting), I’ve seen a huge change in my view of the world. I understand a little more about humans and our connection to each other, and feel like I have glimpsed our so called “purpose” here on Earth. I have come to many of these conclusions, open as they may be, from not only philosophical and spiritual books and people, but anthropological interpretations and parenting theories that look at the whole picture, the grander scheme of life. I’ve connected personally to most of the content, and relate to a lot of the examples that authors have set out for us too. But I have not simply just agreed with these concepts after reading them. I questioned what I read, discussed issues with jubilant sage or my own mother for hours, or contemplated for days or months sometimes before having a theory really sink in. I’ve also not simply read and discussed the concepts at hand, but put them into practice. They often require much revisiting, and relating to my own childhood experiences is never far from my thoughts.

As children, we often thought our parents were cabable of things we weren’t. They were simply better, stronger, and all knowing. They were gods to us. They formed our world, and our view of how people are and how we should be. So it was confusing when they said one thing to us but did another, or treated us with less respect than others. I’ve spoken to many other people who had the same experience as me growing up, that when I was fussy or upset or angry even, my mother would say to me “You’re just tired”, or even worse “Is it time to go to bed?” in a demeaning voice. These simple words spoken to me penetrated my being. She wouldn’t have even dreamed of saying something like that to another adult. They would have demanded recognition of their feelings, they wouldn’t have accepted her suggestion that they needed sleep, especially not if they were taking out their anger. The words didn’t even convey properly to me that what she meant was that she guessed I was sleepy and therefore my emotions were easier to surface and get hold of me, and that if I tried to sleep I might calm down and feel refreshed. Understandably she didn’t say that to me because it would have meant nothing, I wouldn’t have comprehended. Not that it would have worked anywway, and why would I want it to? As a member of the IJ community I know darn well that sleeping away your emotions is not a productive way to approach them. The thing is, I was treated like I didn’t know myself, that I had to be told how to feel, and then how to cope (mostly by not coping).

When my mother told me that I was just sleepy, that I needed to go to bed, she undermined me and my authority of my own body. This can be very confusing when your guide in life is telling you what you are feeling and whether it is true or not. To add to the confusion, more often than not this wasn’t the only feeling I had. What I really I needed was to recognize, accept and learn how to deal with these emotions, and have her support to do so. What happened when I was told I was ‘just tired’ or that I ‘needed to go to bed’? I felt inadequate and confused and untrusting of myself. My body wanted to burn energy, perhaps cry or shout or converse with someone else, whatever it was at the time, but because I’d been told no, that I had to go to bed or do something other than those things, and because I didn’t know how to ask for any of these colourful options, and likely wouldn’t be granted the right to do them even if I had asked, because of all this I wasn’t able to learn how to deal with things, with real life situations and look at my emotions in a practical way. I never really learned how to soothe myself, trust myself, and recognize where those feelings came from let alone truly feel them. I did learn that those feelings were inadequate, not real enough to be dealt with, they were wrong and we had to disguise them as something else, something that my mom had experience in dealing with, like sleep deprivation. Being tired is easy, all you have to do is go to bed right? Well, I almost never went, and if I did it was very confusing and my emotions still weren’t dealt with.

The other issue that came from this is that I’d not been allowed to decide for myself when I was truly tired nor choose for myself when to go to sleep. I’d been told that I was tired when I wasn’t, so what did it mean to be tired? I wasn’t sure, because I also, like most kids, had a bedtime. A bedtime that was earlier than I was ready for. I hadn’t enough freedom to be myself during the day to go to sleep yet. Had I been involved in real life, full energy expelling mind-body-and-soul activities than I might have slept at what my parents considered a reasonable hour. But as it was it took many hours to fall asleep, and being woken up at a certain time, to go to school, was hard as well, maybe I needed to sleep? Maybe I just needed some choice in life.

When it comes to giving choices to children, setting guidelines for them, and not conveying the oh so popular double-standard confusion, there is a way for us as parents to live in harmony, to naturally approach parenting. The big difference is that there is a major shift in not only action but thought. Once your thought process is along the natural concept of child rearing, one that is not child-centered, but mindful and respecting of the growing and learning process that encompasses a child, only then will you see that they are socially capable, communicative and the best person to decide for themselves how-what-and-when to do everyday things.

As a new mother putting this into practice, I don’t pretend to have figured it all out, but I am learning to trust my instincts and I have connected to my daughter on a fundamental level. There is a connection and an understanding that comes with a parent-child duo, and especially at such a young age between mother and baby. If this connection is tapped into and allowed to exist, it can be bountiful in itself and can really guide your lives together if you embrace it.

Everyday with illuminating sage I find I’m re-creating my view of humanity, of our intrinsic needs and desires and how the two are interconnected to create our personalities. Everyday is different, sometimes I fall back into typical thought patterns, but it doesn’t last long, and generally I become more accepting of the natural approach because it feels right and good and I know in my heart and soul that this is what we both need, what we all need.

The main difference in our everyday life with illuminating sage compared to the typical Western approach to babies can be described as such: We fulfill her intrinsic needs, she’s passively a part of everyday goings on, and we don’t pay ‘extra’ attention to her by entertaining her with toys for hours at a time, offering her this and that, teaching her how to whatever, trying to preoccupy her while we go about our days.

We first and foremost attend to her fundamental needs. She gets 24 hour contact and access to mama whenever she wants. Breastfeeding on demand: knowing the signals and really listening, offering it even if unsure. We involve her in everyday activities: she is held or in a carrier of sorts while we eat (she eats our food too) mow the lawn, cook, clean, garden etc… she’s present when we have sex (so far only while she sleeps), she bathes with us, we hold her. More recently she has chosen to lay next to us, at times while she sleeps (I say she chose because she actually wriggles away). She sleeps with us in our bed, and up until very recently in my arms, and ocasionally still even on me (she’s making these changes on her own time). She passively and respectfully watches and listens while we converse with others, she’s watching and learning how to live! We spent our early months almost entirely nude, and still wear as little as the weather and our company (in my case at least) permits. This shows her that nakedness is normal and beautiful, permits her to discover and play freely with herself, allows her to feel everything she’s doing as our skin has millions of sense receptors, and gives her unlimited breast access, which she then understands she has even with clothes on.

We practice what’s appropriately termed elimination communication, where she goes virtually diaper free. She does have underwear for when she dresses, when we are out or when she might get chilled, and a little wool underwear that goes on top if we feel it’s neceassary to protect someone’s couch etc. There’s so much I could say about our experience doing this, but I’ll just say that it’s awesome. A really intense bond is present between us, and intuition (knowing that she has to go pee or poo) plays a big roll. We catch about 75% of her ‘goings’ these days, that was closer to 90% when she wasn’t moving about on her own, and the rest we brush off with a laugh. It’s not about potty training an infant in the classic sense of the term, though we have practiced this since her birth. It’s about communicating and giving her opportunities to go on a potty or hold her over a recepticle or just outside even, and doing so kindly and respectfully. It’s based on your intuition, timing, and cues mostly. We don’t force her to hold it in, because as a newborn she physically couldn’t even if that’s what we were after (which it wasn’t). There is no reprimanding or rewards used for what might otherwise be considered desirable/success’s or undesirable/failed attempts. We stay as neutral as can be, which was as hard as it sounds at first because you can blame yourself (as well as her) and feel guilt for not knowing or listening. But as time passed we stayed true to our reasons for doing this in the first place, and found support online, by re-reading books and mostly through each other. I can now confidently say that it is as natural a part of my day as any other practice and I never look back at the decision to communicate on this wondrous level that is my baby’s body.

Since illuminating sage has been able to roll, and more so since she’s mastered crawling, she wants to explore, burn her own energy, learn how things work, play and discover on her own. She does this happily and comes to us or let’s us know when she wants us to go to her, and sometimes when she needs to pee.

When I look back at how I was conditioned to think of my emotions, to ignore them and pass them off, it helps to see the truth of these natural processes that I’ve been learning about. So instead of doing to illuminating sage what may have been done to me respectively, I will try me best to listen to what she really needs. I’ll try to fulfill her basic desires by putting our relationship at the forefront and by looking at my long term goals for her as a pure being. Sometimes I have to ask myself (especially when it’s been a long day, or I’ve had a disturbed sleep) how can I do this all the time? Give so much of myself to someone else? Well it helps to have so much support from another set of hands like the one’s jubilant sage has for example. We would be even better off if we lived in a communal, or tribal, setting, sharing duties which would include child-rearing, and illuminating sage and the other children could play freely and openly together, learning the ways of life from the adults and older children at thier own pace. But that is not likely to happen anytime soon, if ever, so for now I’ll embrace that intuitive mother in me. I’ll not just be acting on whims, using a band-aid approach to relieve our stresses of the moment. I’ll educate and re-educate myself, and probably more importantly, though tryingly, I’ll un-educate myself. I feel a wholeness, an encompassing goodness that’s been a healing process for me just knowing that illuminating sage will feel the true connection between us, of love, and of peacefuly life learning.

Hmmm…..Life Learners, that’s a topic for another day, although everything I’ve just discussed falls under my personal, and many people who call themselves ‘Radical Unschoolers’ definition of life learning. When you hear those terms ‘life learning’ and ‘Unschooling’ know that they refer to a kind of homeschooling approach that encompasses whole life living and learning. The basics of these approaches is that rather than secluding children from real life and sending them to an isolated place, with only children and authoritative figures, to learn about things that may and more commonly are not useful or of interest to them, rather than all this we let them guide their education and life, and we as parents support them in a total way.

We all learn through different methods, at different paces and all of us learn best if by choice and uninhibited. The big concern with schools as they are isn’t even that they do not foster these types of environments, that they are not mind nourishing, let alone body or soul supportive, but that we, especially the very young we, are learning passively all the time. With the system set up the way it is, we’re often learning what’s unintended, such as how to treat people appropriately, behaviours that are accepted and not, being obedient and rebellious, manipulative and coercive, or competitive and not co-operative. The scariest part to me is that a lot of this is actually intentionally taught. You can find many famous examples of people who have something to say about the truth of our schools, one often referred to is Einstein who awesomely said that “Education is what remains after one has forgotten what one has learned in school.”

Bringing this article to a close, I’m naturally reflecting on what I’ve written and what it has conveyed to you. Being the type of person I am, a big part of my editing and reflecting process has me thinking about what I left out. Unschooling is one of a few biggies. There was something that I would have wanted to share with you all first, but on thinking about it, what was written here was the necessary path to take. I was going to say that discussing natural, and intuitively guided pregnancy and birth before prenting, and sharing my experience of those would have been the natural way to write things down. But had I not gotten my thoughts on pure parenting written first, something I am so confident about, I might not have gotten around to writing about my pregnancy and birth experiences, which I’ve only just begun to delve into, because you see illuminating sage’s birth was traumatizing. We started out at home and things were moving very quickly. She was born at home into water, like we’d hoped, and I had a minute or so to bask in our newborn glory. I didn’t immediately bond with her though because she had complications breathing and so we transfered her to a hospital within her first half hour. We then spent four of what were supposed to be our initial bonding days in the NICU (Neonatal Intensive Care Unit) at CHEO. I’ve only just started to look back at those days, writing and thinking with intention and awareness, hoping some healing is soon to come. It turns out the thing I needed to start my healing was to share some of my story with you all, and I’m truly grateful for that.

These are the three books that have inspired me most on this path, there are many more, but these three are essentials: “The Continuum Concept” by Jean Liedloff, “Unconditional Parenting” by Aflie Kohn, and “Life Learning: Lessons From the Educational Frontier” edited by Wendy Priesnitz.

If you want to get in contact with me I’d love to talk more about any of this. You can comment here or read more of my writings and find more information on this site through the Loving Links page, or on the Beautiful Books: A Bilbliography to Believe In post.

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Expectations Leave Us Wanting

         How did I re-discover that researchedly passionate person in myself only a short time after the ‘essential’ formative school years were through with me? It has a lot to do with my strong willed,  down to Earth, and out right honest-or as my mom would call me tactless and stubborn- character. Though she’s not not completely wrong in her choice of words, it’s part of a common misinterpretation that parents make of their children when they choose to ignore what’s right in front of them, the true reasons why children and especially teens “act out” or “rebel”. They’re lives are predetermined, overscheduled (that’s what happens when schedules are involved at any point), they’re restricted, repressed, confined, pushed to compete, passed off to to the television, and not at all the least, punished by rewards. Our parents, if we were the “luckier” kids in comparison (well truthfully it all depends on what your sprit is really here for)  could sing us praise and push us with determination to succeed at anything, and usually something in particular, whatever succeed even means.

Our goals are always changing, more commonly increasing in size than anything else, and nothing is ever enough.  So be it. Many  of us have noticed this, but most of us ignore it, forget it, think it doesn’t apply to us, or some combination of the three. Forcing what we call goals on someone else, especially a young someone who you care so much for is exactly the way to get the results you don’t want, if, and I amassuming here, you are one of those parents or potential parents (even partner, friend, son or daughter, anyone in a relationship applies here to an extent, though it is much more obvious and with greater impact from a parent to a child) who wants some fundamental attributes to make up the other person, attributes like, caring and compassionate with others and herself, being thoughtful and aware, and being healthy and happy.  If you are someone who wants these things of and for your child, by pushing anything on her, even presenting things to a certain degree, does just that, it internalizes in her and then manifests as a ‘wanting’, as a  child who has been pushed and presented to rather than a child who ‘IS’, a child who remembered her true self willingly and lovingly and who chooses for herself, and more often than not looks within herself to do so. Wanting something in particular for her other than to love and be loved is unrealistic, and hindersome.  

           The words my mother uses to describe me, tactless and stubborn, they somewhat applied at one point in my life, and since that was during  the vast majority of the time in our lives when we lived in the same house, and thus spent the most time seeing eachothers’ characters, I accept that she still mostly sees me that way, and I choose not to let it affect me too much, or our relationship. It’s a result of the dramatic outlash that sometimes comes with a rebellious teenhood, and affects and reflects her as much as me. This is not placing fault on anyone. Our culture and society as a whole have been building for thousands of years, and for one family to over come it would truly be something. No, what I wish to convey here, is the authoritative attitude and lack of responsability we all take when it comes to our children especially. My mother would not likely today be describing me with such words if things had been different, and probably more importantly, they would not even have come close to applying to me. When I say that those words ‘somewhat’ applied to me, I mean that they did, but only because I was confined, and made to feel ‘un safe’ emotionally to be who I really am, I didn’t even know who that was,  but we saw glimpses, through the anger I took on because I was not allowed freedom in the greatest sense of the word, we saw a stubborn and tactless girl, when we could have experienced her as a brave and honest being. When we are truthful and strong to the core of our being, like I now know myself to be, but are formed (attempted rather) to be other things like appropriate or athletic or atheist to name a few, it makes it unneceassarily difficult to remember who you really are, and the suffering takes over. What the truth of the matter is, is that my being, our beings, our childrens beings are repressed, forgotten, and looked upon in haste and in trepid if at all.
          As we are all one, a collective consciousness, it doesn’t serve us the way our lives could to care for children and fellow beings this way. If we act out of love and as pure parents, pure beings, rather than acting through our expectations of each other and of ourselves , we wouldn’t be coming to the point of rebellion, of labelling each other as such and such a type of person, we would just be.  If we just be with our selves, with our children, with eachother, then we can be close to being one, we can focus on truth and love, on just being, peaceful and pure.